This is the journal that I keep as I work on a project. I reread it at points along the road and often discover solutions to problems (that I would otherwise have forgotten). When I reread it I "bold" those parts of the text that have relevance to me at that moment.
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CRASHING (FEVER DREAM) NOTES/JOURNAL
6.16.03 - 5.17.05
"DIVINE INVASIONS" BY LAWRENCE SUTIN (7/13 - 7/24/03) PDK uses junk props of SF genre to fashion intensely
visionary fiction. (p1)
Types 120 wpm
"I want to write about people I love, and put them in a fictional world spun out of my own mind, not the world we actually have, because the world we actually have does not meet my standards." (p4)
re. his readers "they cannot or will not blunt their intimations about the irrational, mysterious nature of reality." (p.5)
Religious visions that PDK tries to make sense of (visions of his breakdown will form grist of future fiction). [this could be FD framing device]
Repercussions of drug use (Dick would have used acid-grass- speed) (Does Dick smoke pot with Haley and that further unhinges him?)
PDK's Themes: what is real? what is human? Death of twin sister Jane.
Happily married to Kleo, they move to Point Reyes and in 2 weeks he falls in love with Anne.
"I could tell the difference between the real world and the world that I write about." (p74)
PDK's voracious literary reading. His theory of Finnegan's Wake: the text is Earwicker's dream from which he wakes at novels end. (p79)
Crashing back in time to stand beside bed and see his earlier self (p84)
SF novels published quickly, mainstream novels languished (p85)